Being alone on a Friday night used to scare the sh*t out of me.
Look, by the time I came out, I had missed out on three decades of the gay scene. It was my time to party while I could.
Classic case of FOMO.
Little did I know that the inability to be alone was a precursor to meth addiction.
If I were OK with loneliness:
--I wouldn't have been glued to Grindr 24/7;
--I would have invested time in personal growth;
--I would have learned more about my boundaries;
--I would have fallen in love with who I am.
--I wouldn't have become a binge-watching zombie.
Instead, I turned away from my interests and sought external validation. The bars and chaos drowned out the voices in my head saying, "Hey, you, we need to heal some wounds."
If you ignore those voices long enough, they will get your attention in other ways.
Enter active addiction.
The Universe is always pulling us toward our highest state of being. And sometimes, that means pulling us through the mud (in love).
If you are currently 'in the mud' and looking for a lifeline, reply "COACHING" to this email to apply for my 1:1 Coaching Program, Recovery Alchemy. I will get down in the mud with you. We will get you to higher ground, I promise.
Dallas 💚
This week's podcast is a good one. Grab some paper and a pen because you'll want to take notes. My buddy Dan dishes out some valuable recovery - and life - advice from his lived experience.
Listen and/or Watch the Podcast Here:
Podcast Study Guide:
Emotional Growth and Dealing with Loneliness
A crucial aspect of recovery is emotional growth, particularly in learning to identify, express, and manage emotions without the crutch of substances.
Many individuals in recovery find that they must essentially relearn how to experience and process feelings they've long suppressed. Loneliness often emerges as a significant challenge in this process.
Dan's experience highlights the importance of understanding loneliness as a common human experience rather than a personal failure. Recovery involves developing strategies to cope with loneliness and other difficult emotions without turning to substances.
Developing a Spiritual Practice in Recovery
Spirituality in recovery often extends beyond traditional religious concepts, encompassing a broader search for meaning and connection.
For many, like Dan, this involves finding purpose and significance in everyday experiences and cultivating a sense of connection to something larger than oneself.
Mindfulness and presence in the moment become key practices, helping individuals stay grounded in their recovery and engaged with life.
This spiritual dimension can provide a powerful foundation for maintaining sobriety, offering comfort, inspiration, and a sense of purpose that substances once falsely promised.
Navigating Sober Relationships and Sexuality
Rebuilding one's social and intimate life in sobriety presents both challenges and opportunities.
Many individuals in recovery must confront fears and anxieties about sober intimacy, having relied on substances to facilitate social and sexual interactions in the past.
The process involves relearning how to connect with others authentically, without the false confidence or lowered inhibitions that drugs or alcohol once provided.
Developing healthy communication skills becomes crucial, both in friendships and romantic relationships.
For many, like Dan, exploring sexuality and intimacy in a sober context can be initially daunting but ultimately more fulfilling.
Reflective Questions:
- How has addiction impacted your ability to process and express emotions?
- What does "spiritual growth" mean to you, especially if you don't identify as religious?
- How has your perception of loneliness changed throughout your recovery journey?
- What strategies have you developed to stay present in the moment?
- How has your relationship with yourself evolved since beginning recovery?
Journal Prompts:
- Describe a time when you felt truly present and connected to the world around you. What made that moment special?
- Write about your fears and hopes regarding sober intimacy and relationships.
- Reflect on a challenging emotion you've experienced recently. How did you process it without turning to substances?
- List five things you're grateful for in your recovery journey so far.
- Imagine writing a letter to your past self at the height of your addiction. What would you say?
Action Exercises:
- Practice mindfulness meditation for 10 minutes daily for a week. Journal about your experience.
- Attend a 12-step meeting or support group you've never been to before. Reflect on what you learned.
- Create a "feelings wheel" or download one online. Use it to identify and name your emotions for a week.
- Reach out to a sober friend or support person and have an honest conversation about your recovery journey.
- Choose one of the recommended books (e.g., "The Four Agreements" or "The Velvet Rage") and read it. Apply one principle from the book to your life.
October 3, 2024
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